Monday, April 20
My worst nightmare begin!
♥ 12:16:00 AM
2day off day. continue sms wif him. keep on think of yesterday hapi moment wif him. >.<" den he told me v should let her noe tat v 2gether edy. i get a shock, coz i nt ready yet. i scare tat she will get mad. few mins ltr, she msg me ask tat he came to my hse cut hair izit. den i answer yup. den i feel tat she get mad edy. den d war begin~ she msg me n scold me. i duno wat to reply her. coz i feel so sad n confuse, i sad bcoz my uncle passed away. i feel so sry tat i din go n visit him. confuse bcoz she break wif him edy worhx. y so angry?! she told me be4, she dun like him. she just use him to 4gt d old edwin. nw i wif him, ntg wrong rite. den i no choice, reply her n apologize to her. den she reply me its okiie larhx, wont blame me for tat. n world still gt so many guys, she wont angry me jz bcoz of a guy. n tis wont destroy our frenship. but den she said another things infront of him. she really make me damn fucking confuse. tis nt d 1st time she treat me like tis~! tis r d 3rd time. 1st n 2nd time, i oso 4gv her even she hurt me. i love n care her as my best sis. but nw?! y treat me like tis agn? bo song me, den jz face to face say! den he ask me who r telling d lies. wat for i nid to tell lies?! im telling d truth, i nvr telling lies or making stories. but den he choose to believe her, he break up to me. when he said tat to me, my heart broke into pieces~! WHY?! U SAID U WONT TREAT ME LIKE TAT?! BUT D END~ he said nite going to find her. i cry for many hours~ y both of u treat me like tat?! im nt d liar either d bitch~! i wont treat ppl like tat. i treat everyone gd, but den y everyone treat me like tis?! i really dun understand~!!! nite he msg me, he told her everything. ask me dun simply tell her sumthings. tat time i really get mad edy, i nvr mean to scold him or her. i reply him i wont tell her anythings. coz both of them make me so speechless. i will jz keep my mouth shut. he nvr reply me anymore. 2nite i really hard to fall sleep. my pillow all wet, y d one i love always treat me like tat?! WHY?! i do love him~! if he love me, he will believe wat i say. but i think he nvr love me, tats y he choose to believe her. in his heart, still remain her place. 2nite, d sweet moment keep on repeat on my mind~ i feel really suffer~! god~ plz save me from tis~! T.T
&taking pictures makes me happy.
Riiko
